Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Feelin Some Kinda Way

So this blog is my update to previos blog about John Doe....

We continued to date and to see each other. When we are together I have some of the greatest times i can remember having on a date. The touch, the smell of the skin, the softness of the lips, it all is so great to me. Physically this is my type of person for real! I mean body is right for me, hugs feel great, affection......yall get my point. The issue for me is that while i called myself trying to give an Ultimatum, "tell me your name or im leaving you" i didnt go through with it! Why? Because I was really feeling him *sigh* and still am. Its rare for me to talk about who im spending a lot of my time with to family and friends because i dont want it to be a curse or something lol. Also i didnt want to lose having a good person in my life. I really believed and still do think that he is a great guy, handsome as hell, genuine. But i think he's been burned and burned bad. I feel like their are underlying insecurities that should be discussed but i ont want it to come across as an attack.

We talked about previous relationships and there was a justification on the name thing so i held out for a bit longer but it still remained an issue but i just decided to put my patience to the test. Outside of the name thing it seemed like things were going really well until one day i started thinking. Maybe he doesnt trust me or that who ever preceeded me was a person of such caliber that the dating scenario had been tarnished for him so bad that if i wanted any additional info that i needed to be the KNight in shining armor riding the White Horse in a fresh pair of air Force Ones lol.

Then i thought again and maybe this is where it makes the most sense for me. Our beliefs on trust were different. In getting to know someone, i give trust until you give me a reason not to while he believes trust is earned. Now im not Naive with my trust like "oh hes so great im gonna let him take my ATM card and get us some money for dinner". I aint no fool but trust like if were going to become an item then certain things are worth knowing and sharing especially when your potential mate expresses their concern about them. So now i sit feeling some kind of way because i enjoyed the time we spent together but was tired of fighting when we were apart. I feel like the root of a lot of my issues were because i didnt feel like i was trusted. Is it so much that i know his name...nah but its the principle that you are keeping it from me. To me trust is like solid ground, its extremely hard to build something amazing without that foundation in tact if that makes sense. Does it? I must admit i really do like him and care a lot about him but im not sure what to do next.

My questions for you.....
When dating someone new, what is your stance on trust? Do you give until there is a reason not to? Do they earn "trust" points until theyve reached 100 of them? Where would you go from here?

Thanks In Advance for the input


Always,

B Free

Friday, February 1, 2008

Election Time

These are a couple articles that i read and found interesting. I don't mind feedback but i dont need the Negative Nancy attitudes. Thanks punkin!

"It is more important to understand than to be understood." (Bill Russell)


ARTICLE 1

NEWS FLASH !
Hillary Was AGAINST the Civil Rights Act of 1964
While a Republican and "Goldwater Girl"

I know and appreciate that Barack Obama has taken the
high road, but as a black man it is important to me
that we all know the TRUTH about Hillary. Read
This.....THEN SPREAD THE WORD !!!!

A March 12, 2007 article written by acclaimed
Washington columnist Robert Novak sheds a very
revealing light on the true sentiment of Hillary
Clinton during the peak of the Civil Rights Movement.
Clinton recently was found to have minimized the great
and monumental strides taken by Dr. Martin Luther King
Jr. by stating that it was Lyndon B. Johnson, then
president, who should receive the credit for the civil
rights progress including the Civil Rights Act of 1964.

In an attempt to attract black support Hillary Clinton
regularly shares her 'civil rights experience' during
every speech given to black audiences. Novak write s of
one such speech at Selma's First Baptist Church on the
42nd anniversary of the "bloody Sunday" freedom march
there, where Sen. Clinton declared: "As a young woman,
I had the great privilege of hearing Dr. King speak in
Chicago. The year was 1963. My youth minister from our
church took a few of us down on a cold January night
to hear [King]. . . . And he called on us, he
challenged us that evening to stay awake during the
great revolution that the civil rights pioneers were
waging on behalf of a more perfect union." But Novak's
article states that there's a big problem with her
statement.

The fact is, in 1963, not only was Hillary Clinton a
republican, but she was also a staunch supporter of
republican Senator Barry Goldwater, well known as a
segregationist and one of the most vocal senators
adamently against the passing of the Civil Rights Act
of 1964, which is why he lost in his presidential bid
to Lyndon B. J o hnson. Novak writes "...how then could
she be a 'Goldwater Girl' in the next year's
presidential election?" He continues, "...she
described herself in her memoirs as 'an active Young
Republican' and 'a Goldwater girl, right down to my
cowgirl outfit.'

Novak adds, "As a politically attuned honor student,
she must have known that Goldwater was one of only six
Republican senators who joined Southern Democratic
segregationists opposing the historic voting rights
act of 1964 inspired by King. Hillary headed the Young
Republicans at Wellesley College. The incompatibility
of those two positions of 40 years ago was noted to me
(Novak) by Democratic old-timers who were shocked by
Sen. Clinton's temerity in pursuing her presidential
candidacy." Novak adds, "What Hillary Clinton said at
Selma is significant because it betrays her campaign's
panicky reaction to the unexpected rise of Sen. Obama
as a serious competitor for the De mo cratic nomination.


Clinton's plans were transformed by the advent of
Obama, an African-American threatening the hard
allegiance of black voters forged by Bill Clinton. On
one hand, the Clinton campaign has attacked Obama and
his supporters. On the other hand, she has sought to
solidify her civil rights credentials.

While Clinton was re-inventing her past, her road to
the White House is not going as planned. Instead of a
steady procession to coronation at the Denver
convention, she is involved in a real struggle against
credible opponents led by Obama. No wonder she and her
handlers were tempted to imply the existence long ago
of a young lady in Chicago's suburbs who never really
existed."

We greatly appreciate Mr. Novak's findings which bring
one main thought to mind. Wake up Black America! DON'T
BE FOOLED ! The fact is, despite her falsehoods,
Hillary was AGAINST the passing of the Civil Rights
Act o f 1 964 that Dr. Martin Luther King died for. As a
'Goldwater Girl' she was actually even against Lyndon
B. Johnson, the very person she now gives the credit
to for Dr. King getting to the mountaintop. She has
worked extremely hard to hide many truths about her
past, including ordering that her 92 page college
thesis that she wrote at Wellesley College be 'sealed'
and unavailable to the public, an order forced upon
the college by Bill Clinton while president, although
all senior thesis' at Wellesley have been available
for public reading for over 100 years, except
one....Hillary Rodham Clinton's.

Reports have stated that information in her 'secret
thesis' could be the 'Swift Boat' ammo to be used by
the Republican Party against her should she become the
nominee. (read more about 'secret thesis' at MSNBC)

In addition to re-inventing her past, the most obvious
new Billary Clinton strategy is to use 'Token Negroes'
lik e BE T Founder Bob Johnson, Tavis Smiley, and Magic
Johnson to name a few, to attack and discredit Barack
Obama, a tactic which many blacks find additionally
offensive, calling these black Clinton cronies
'sell-outs'. Spread the word....share the facts. The
Clinton's have been conning the black community for a
long time and are NOT what they claim to be. I bet
they go home at night, pour some expensive wine, kick
their feet up and just laugh like crazy about what big
black suckers we are. But now, it's time to prove them
wrong !




ARTICLE 2

I am practically seething with all of the black people, especially so called "intelligent" , "educated", black people giving a million tired excuses of why they won't vote for Barack Obama and will vote for a Hillary Clinton:


1. He's not ready/He's not experienced.
Man please. You have the top 3 Democratic candidates with 1 Senate term under their belt. Hillary as the First Lady as experienced? Not one executive decision is made being as the first lady. That's like Stedman recommending a book, endorsing a candidate, or having his own show...SO WHAT.


2. White America is not ready for a Black president.
Whaaa? Was White America ready for slavery to end? Giving us the right to vote? Desegregation of our society? When did black people ever let white people dictate when and where we were getting our just due, our break? We've always stepped up and demanded what we wanted, or we were either hitting the streets and tearin' up some stuff, escapin', marching, or picketing. White America is ready for a Black President because Barack Obama is the right man for President, PERIOD.
Besides, that never stopped anyone from voting for Jesse Jackson, a man with NO political experience AT ALL from almost snatching the Democratic nomination in 1984, and coming darn close again in 1988 20 YEARS AGO.


3. Barak is half black and half white, so he's not really black anyway.
I should backsmack anyone who has ever thought that. Ever heard of the one drop rule? It has not only been a social standard for WHO is black, but it also upheld the constitution in keeping us from suing a white person over personal property. No black person ever refers to another black person as "biracial". You black. You might have another heritage in your lineage, but this country as well as any other sees you as black, PERIOD. Lame excuse people.


4. I don't know what issues Barack stands for.
When the heck has that ever prevented black folk from voting for a black candidate, really? I guess now, but the main people saying that couldn't tell you anything about Hillary's or John Edwards platform either. Please stop fronting.


5. All he did was give that one speech.
How many great people have defined their lives, the scope of human history, and changed the world in a speech? Moses, Jesus, Paul, Martin Luther, Frederick Douglas, Abraham Lincoln, Franklin Delano Roosevelt, Winston Churchill, Martin Luther King, Jr., John F. Kennedy, Malcolm X, Ronald Reagan, Nelson Mandela, Jesse Jackson, and Jim Valvano all have changed the course of history of the world and the hearts of billions of men and women in societies since the beginning of time with a speech.
That is the purpose of a rally. A person speaks, and it prepares a ll to act in relation to the spirit of what is spoken. That is why we go to church, not to just hear our pastor blather, but to refresh God in our hearts and spurn us to take up God's will in our lives.
So save all that ying yang about that speech.


6. If all of those white people are supporting him, he must be in their back pocket.
Save the conspiracy theory home skillet. He's liked because he comes at a time where a person that looks exactly like them lied to their face (two in a row, if you include Bill Clinton with Monica and of course Bush with Iraq), and flat out said what no politician would admit: We have two Americas, blue and red, black and white. It was not publicly said, and on top of that proposed that we ACTUALLY DO something about it, not find more ways to be divided and not come together despite our differences. Noble concept, and one to be championed. That's JFK, FDR, and Abe Lincoln material. So they were feeling it, just like I was and you should too. His legislative work has been indicative of this a s well, including his Fuel Standard work with President Bush. Check the resume, it shines.


THE REAL REASON BLACK PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO VOTE FOR OBAMA IS THAT THEY ARE AFRAID THAT HE'LL WIN, AND:


1.WE'LL HAVE NO MORE EXCUSES LEFT.
We won't be able to say, "America is racist", "I cannot get a break because I'm black", and all other random excuses many blacks make for not achieving anything in their lives.


2. IF SOCIETY IS LEFT UNCHANGED AFTER HIS PRESIDENCY WE'LL LOSE HOPE.
If a black man becomes President, I honestly believe many black people feel that all of the world's problems should come to an end. No more crack selling, no more black on black crime, no more baby mama drama and dead beat daddies, no more people on welfare and on the chow line, no more wineoes, no more police brutality, no more DWB, no more predatory loans, no more ghettos, no more racism period, no more Middle East unrest, just everybody singing cumbaya. To some degree, I think alot of white people, especially liberal, feel that way too, that's why they are all up on him like that.
THAT'S RIDICULOUS. If it happened, he'd be one of the greatest people that ever lived, but that's way too much pressure to put on one man. DANG! I feel that people are really not ready for the world to get better anyway. It's l ike that father you never knew but won't make a relationship with because you don't want to be let down. It's unfair and let that go. Barak will make a great President, but he won't solve all of the world's problems, nor can he solve all of black peoples' problems either.


3. SO CALLED "EDUCATED" BLACK PEOPLE WON'T BE SO SPECIAL ANYMORE BECAUSE THE PLAYING FIELD WILL BE LEVELED.
Absolutely hate more than anything else. The above 2 reasons were largely a poor disadvantaged black person's inner fear about Barack. Many of number 2 and all of this one is specifically tailored to you bourgeois folks that actually like being the only black person (or one of a very few) in your medical school, your law school, your master's program, your Ph.D. program, your high fallutin' Fortune 500 Company, your faculty at your prestigious institution.
You feel deep inside being a talented 10th will become a talented population. As much as you detest and look down at your disadvantaged brothers and sisters, and claim they need to "get a job", "get an education", "pull themselves up from their own bootstraps", and "stop being so ignorant", you like them where they are. You are the one that has that shad y feeling in your belly when a new black person is hired because you don't want them to screw it up for you. Yeah you...I'm talkin' about you. You know who you are. You think deep inside, Keishas, Darnells, Shequans are going to get theirs now that Barak is in office, and you won't be so special anymore.
See you like racism. You probably are like Clarence Thomas, the man that benefitted from Affirmative Action but now you got yours, nobody else can get in too, so you vote against Affirmative Action. Yeah, claim you got your opportunity on merit. No, you got it on the backs of our ancestors that had to fight for you to get that job. Now you don't want a world where everyone has an equal opportunity. Well actually neither do poor blacks either, see 1.


3. IF HE MESSES IT UP, WE'RE ALL SCREWED.
Back in the day blacks with degrees could do nothing but shine shoes outside the company. Now we're in them, making decisions, even CEOs like my man Stanley O'Neal, the first black American to take the helm of a major Wall Street firm. That brother completely mismanaged the company, like many others who mismanaged banks and cause losing equity because of security back subprime loans. Now, those that are in the know are afraid that a black man cannot ever get that opportunity to be THE MAN at a major institution again.
Not only that, if Barack messes it up, there will be a backlash on all of black America. "You guys had your chance to run the free world, and you blew it".
Sorry Charlie, Barak is one man. You can't use the logic for yourself as far as getting ahead, but lose it for this man. George Bush completely botched America's st anding in the world, but I don't see anyone afraid to elect another white man. So come off of it.


4. BLACK WOMEN FEEL SORRY FOR HILLARY BEING CHEATED ON BY THE REAL FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT.
This is so dumb, I cannot address with words, but it's the truth for alot of black people, who felt Bill was the first Black President, and sistas especially would feel like they were vindicating a woman that was done wrong by anotha brotha.


5. BLACKS LIKE TO BE DIFFERENT FROM WHITES AND BARAK WILL BREAK DOWN BARRIERS WE LIKE HAVING UP.
Keep it real people. You hate it when anything we do gets imitated. It is instantly uncool. Most blacks love that we have our own thing, our own culture. Having Barack win means for a lot of people America will have more of a shared consciousness. We'll actually have to come together and squash some beef to make this country cooperative. I don't completely believe this concept, but I'm down for it. Once again, Black people really do like racism.


For all of you doubters out there this is what you really need to ask yourselves:


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same .


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What are your thoughts?

If you think about it, should HillBilly Clinton be elected as our next President we would have been subjected to 24 continuous years of Bush Clinton era. Have you seen what the country has been dealing with in that time? The above the line words are not my own but i did find them interesting and extremely thought provoking. A little Food for Thought, consume as you see fit.