Monday, October 13, 2008

O-M-G! You done lost yo mutha****** mind!

What do these kids think about before they act, talk, or text?

Many different ways to say it:

Off his rocker
Elevator doesnt go to the top floor
Not the brightest star in the sky
Not the sharpest knife in the drawer
Not the brightest crayon in the box

You get the point


These days it seems like im experiencing so many people who have such incomplete processes before they decide to do something. Its weird and I surely cant be alone in this.


Bachelor #1 - Big Papa

A nice young man, good head on his shoulders and all that. We met at a party some time back and have maintained a friendship and good conversation. He lives in another state so thats about all there is. So out of the blue I get the, "ohhh I wanna see you so bad, im gonna come to Atlanta" line. Im like ok that sounds cool, we can hang out, grab dinner, etc. And hes like yeah I just found a ticket for $320 so when I get there ill just get $160 from you and we'll be cool.

WTF!?!?!?

Did I say I was sending for you? Did I say "ohhh you should come visit me"? Hell naw. What makes you think you can volunteer my money without my approval...NEXT!!


Bachelor #2 - Baseball Fan

Again, a nice young man, good head...on his shoulders. Grad school student, motivated etc. So you call yourself wanting to get to know me. Fine by me, im not involved in anything committed at this point. So we're talking on the phone and a call beeps in and he says "hold on". So I hold and he clicks back over and is like "well the dude i've been kinda seeing is in the parking lot so i'm gonna call you when he leaves."

WTF!?!?!?

Attractive: + 50 points
Honesty: + 100 points
Conversation: + 100 points
Personality: + 100 points

Attempting to make me the other guy, and be
the one on the back burner: MINUS ALL of them damn points

NEXT!!


Bachelor #3 - Papi

So we've known each other for a while, lots of sexual tension between us. I think at one point if left alone in a room for an extended period of time, many calories would be burned and we would both leave with our skin having that "glow" on it. It would...have been, hot. Papi and I both met someone cool around the same time and did our own thing but we continued to be friends. So I saw Papi's boo out quite a few times without Papi and was like hmmmm that aint gonna last long at all. SO why when someones relationship fails do they think they can just make a phone call and just pickup where things left off? So now hes askin when I can come visit and chill or when he can come visit and chill. So because your situation didnt work out im supposed to jump at the chance to chill with you again?

WTF!?!?!?

Boi Stop!! I can't be that other guy, its not the position im interviewing for. My resume has been retracted from that database and its time for me to keep it movin. the economy is down and your timing is off. NEXT!!


Bachelor #4 - Persistent Peter

So "ex boo" is apparently tryin to keep Sprint and T-Mobile in business in this slow economy. He is making sure that the networks continue to transfer calls fromt he T-Mob network to the all PCS giant. He calls I answer, we talk. He calls, I answer, we talk. I dont think there is anything wrong with speaking because as adults I think you should be able to do that with someone youve dated. If you can lay in a bed with someone and share intimate moments and you later cant even be cordial then I say shame on you! Well it's about to be SHAME On ME! Remember that song Bug-a-Boo? Yeah if I had a pager still I would have thrown it out the window by now lol. Well most recently I get a text at 1 in the morning. And they say the only thing open from 12am - 3am is the Waffle House and some legs. So im being cordial with this 1am text and then I get the invite to come over and "chill" really?! Chill at 1am? Boi stop!! Im no Einstein but Ray Charles could see the motive behind that one. He was tryna make it do what it do baby lol. So I decline that invitation and bid a good night. The next morning im told "Oh you got me confused!"

WTF!?!?!?

You askin me to come to your house at 1am and I decline the invitation and I'VE got you confused? This chile done fell off the rocker. WTF do I look like? This aint no CoCo Dorms and i am not Breon. Tryna text some Dick 2 Door by Delivery or somethin. Im not the one. So I reply back, since I have you confused I know how to proceed since I know where this is going, and thas by ending communication. I am a grown, professional. I dont have time for this. If we gone be cool, lets be that but we dont need bitterness and all to get involved. Now you wanna leave messages...but I got you confused? NEXT!!


What would you do with these people?

Am i crazy or do more people do this kind of stuff?

Where are the bright crayons found? I'm ready to color DAYUM!

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Bitch Stop Callin Me

So new boo is no mo lol.

As i spoke about in my last few posts id been seeing someone new and was ohhhh so excited. Things were going well until that oh so enlightening night.

It started as one of those calls on my way home where i would check in with my future, who id been datinig for about 5 months or so, and catch up on the days events and see what was what. We talked about any and everything, it was the sound of the voice that mattered more than the subject... or so i thought.

So i had a good day, got my car washed (yall dont know how i am about my car; when my ride is dirty theres a storm coming or going any other time she sparkles lol)and I have a nice lil slow mix cd i made playin softly in the background. So were talkin and talkin and you know the rule 'Dont ask what you dont want the answer to' and then i asked "Baby when was the last time you had sex?" and baby replies with a chuckle and a slight gasp, one of those where you been caught off guard. So im like awwww shit this is gonna be good *mutes the radio* and i begin to listen because i know whatever baby is about to tell me at that point is going to be entertaining. "Ahmmm you really want to know the truth to that?" And im like "Hell yeah I want to know"..."Umm like 2 weeks ago"...I think i swerved in my lane a lil bit and then respond "Ok, i really appreciate your being honest with me, it means a lot to me." A moment of silence passes as who i thought was my future is thinking of a way to clean up or justify the actions all the while i am driving down the road ejecting the slow jam cd and inserting the Trina - Still Da Baddest album. What track did i go to you might ask, I'm Single Again...back on the prowl lol. After my song cues up with the intro i kindly say "well im going to take some time to myself now, have a good evening and we'll speak later...at some point". "Baby can we talk about this and let me explain?" "I said at some point we will talk, goodnight"


Why is it that folks expect it to be ok for them to do them but then when they slip up youre supposed to be the desperate one who will turn the other cheek and let that ride?

NAWWWW not me. My self-worth is extreme and i couldnt let that one slide. Now youre questioning why im being distant and not calling like i used to. If you cant figure that out then its best that i let ya go now because you are not as smart as i thought you were to begin with.

Anybody had an experience like this?

What did you do?

Did you think about what to do for a few days first?

Would you give a second chance? Third?



Its been a few weeks and we talked, i said my part. Im cool on baby boy. Our paths have crossed a few times since and im always cordial and greet with a hug but my emotions are now void. Am i wrong? Baby boy keeps callin and texting liek things are the same but they are not.

What would yall do?

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Dating dot dot dot

My mind is just out there right now.

It seems like when im doin my single thing that the good ones are hard to find. You just do you and think that maybe you'll run across a catch and no luck. Then all of a sudden you do find one and its like all the others come out of hiding and flock to you.

I've been consistently dating someone for about 5 months or so and all has been going well. But in these past 5 months about 5 people have pursued me. And im not talkin about on no physical lets get it crackin type thing but on some, i wanna make you mine, husband, boo-ed up type stuff. It's flattering to an extent but then i know what im worth so thats how it should be anyway when they are trying to get at me. Should i expect that for every month that goes on that another will add themselves to my list, like month 6 there will be 6 month 7 there will be 7 and so on?

OMG its crazy!!

How does this dating thing work? If you are dating one particular person for a certain amount of time but there has been no discussion of exclusivity, do you continue to entertain the others? You cant assume that the other is all about you cause we know what it means to Assume lol. Do you "put all your eggs in one basket"? How the hell is this dating thing supposed to work?

Im an Aries, i need attention. Not overly but i require to be admired lol. Not always physical but i need that affirmation. its weird but so what lol. What should i do? What would you do? What would Oprah do?

Call me Confused Calvin cause i dont know lol.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Growing Up

So i keep falling off LOL but im tryin!!

I had a birthday at the end of March and im at that prime age of 26. Young enough to know the right car to buy yet grown enough not to put rims on it!!! LOL just to catch yall up on whats been going on in a few words beore bed.

Birthday Party at a lounge in Midtown ATL ~

I was surrounded by my closest friends and i had a blast. I learned that each year my age gets higher, so does my alcohol tolerance. My peeps had me tore up and i was still goin. I was so happy to have my mom come and join me for the festivities and now many see where i get such great skin and good looks from lol.


John Doe ~

So after having his name withheld for so long i took matters into my own hand. Through due diligence, i got the information that id been so patiently waiting on. The only thing is i didnt get it form him, i had to work my inspector gadget abilities. But the thing is after i got his real name, i still just wanted him to tell it to me. It was like the next step for us to grow that he so sincerely resisted. So i told him i knew, he got mad, and then i dont remember what else he said because i more or less just tuned him out. I realized that as hard as i tried, it just wasnt the right season for him. We agreed to be friends but then he said he couldnt just be my friend so....no further contact withhim. Its a lil different ending than im used to but thats the way the cookie crumbles.


Upcoming News ~

I was thinking about leaving my company and i think they could sense it. In the midst of my search for a new position they hit me with the "P" word. Yup im in the beginning stages of a promotion os thats new and exciting. Im not sure what is to come but im excited nonetheless.

One of my best friends, who introduced me to Boo, is being deployed to Iraq to fight in this war over some shit that aint even ours. I've been feelin some kinda way about that lately. Just over a year left and he'll be back home!!! Im already planning the next party. Im not usually a super emotional guy. The last time i cried was in 2003 and the time before that was in 1999. This weekend i hosted friends at my house for a BBQ and farewell party and in trying to tell my bestfriend/brother how i felt i started crying. It was somethin else and having a room full of people starin at you while you got tears runnin down your face is not fun lol. I'll get through it, we'll get through it. I cant wait till 2009 summer when my buddy gets back home!!

Im currently dating a new gentleman so thats really cool. Things are going well. Very VERY slow and i kinda like it. Its a new way of doin things, takes a lil adjusting but its worth it for sure. This feels like the one!

Im heading to Miami (what?! the trip was planned before i met him!) for Memorial Day. Im not sure how to feel. All the temptation will be there but im in a deep like right now with Boo! We dont wanna mess this up so yall pray for me puhlease.



This concludes the updates of whats goin on in my world! See you all around!

Always,

B Free

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Feelin Some Kinda Way

So this blog is my update to previos blog about John Doe....

We continued to date and to see each other. When we are together I have some of the greatest times i can remember having on a date. The touch, the smell of the skin, the softness of the lips, it all is so great to me. Physically this is my type of person for real! I mean body is right for me, hugs feel great, affection......yall get my point. The issue for me is that while i called myself trying to give an Ultimatum, "tell me your name or im leaving you" i didnt go through with it! Why? Because I was really feeling him *sigh* and still am. Its rare for me to talk about who im spending a lot of my time with to family and friends because i dont want it to be a curse or something lol. Also i didnt want to lose having a good person in my life. I really believed and still do think that he is a great guy, handsome as hell, genuine. But i think he's been burned and burned bad. I feel like their are underlying insecurities that should be discussed but i ont want it to come across as an attack.

We talked about previous relationships and there was a justification on the name thing so i held out for a bit longer but it still remained an issue but i just decided to put my patience to the test. Outside of the name thing it seemed like things were going really well until one day i started thinking. Maybe he doesnt trust me or that who ever preceeded me was a person of such caliber that the dating scenario had been tarnished for him so bad that if i wanted any additional info that i needed to be the KNight in shining armor riding the White Horse in a fresh pair of air Force Ones lol.

Then i thought again and maybe this is where it makes the most sense for me. Our beliefs on trust were different. In getting to know someone, i give trust until you give me a reason not to while he believes trust is earned. Now im not Naive with my trust like "oh hes so great im gonna let him take my ATM card and get us some money for dinner". I aint no fool but trust like if were going to become an item then certain things are worth knowing and sharing especially when your potential mate expresses their concern about them. So now i sit feeling some kind of way because i enjoyed the time we spent together but was tired of fighting when we were apart. I feel like the root of a lot of my issues were because i didnt feel like i was trusted. Is it so much that i know his name...nah but its the principle that you are keeping it from me. To me trust is like solid ground, its extremely hard to build something amazing without that foundation in tact if that makes sense. Does it? I must admit i really do like him and care a lot about him but im not sure what to do next.

My questions for you.....
When dating someone new, what is your stance on trust? Do you give until there is a reason not to? Do they earn "trust" points until theyve reached 100 of them? Where would you go from here?

Thanks In Advance for the input


Always,

B Free

Friday, February 1, 2008

Election Time

These are a couple articles that i read and found interesting. I don't mind feedback but i dont need the Negative Nancy attitudes. Thanks punkin!

"It is more important to understand than to be understood." (Bill Russell)


ARTICLE 1

NEWS FLASH !
Hillary Was AGAINST the Civil Rights Act of 1964
While a Republican and "Goldwater Girl"

I know and appreciate that Barack Obama has taken the
high road, but as a black man it is important to me
that we all know the TRUTH about Hillary. Read
This.....THEN SPREAD THE WORD !!!!

A March 12, 2007 article written by acclaimed
Washington columnist Robert Novak sheds a very
revealing light on the true sentiment of Hillary
Clinton during the peak of the Civil Rights Movement.
Clinton recently was found to have minimized the great
and monumental strides taken by Dr. Martin Luther King
Jr. by stating that it was Lyndon B. Johnson, then
president, who should receive the credit for the civil
rights progress including the Civil Rights Act of 1964.

In an attempt to attract black support Hillary Clinton
regularly shares her 'civil rights experience' during
every speech given to black audiences. Novak write s of
one such speech at Selma's First Baptist Church on the
42nd anniversary of the "bloody Sunday" freedom march
there, where Sen. Clinton declared: "As a young woman,
I had the great privilege of hearing Dr. King speak in
Chicago. The year was 1963. My youth minister from our
church took a few of us down on a cold January night
to hear [King]. . . . And he called on us, he
challenged us that evening to stay awake during the
great revolution that the civil rights pioneers were
waging on behalf of a more perfect union." But Novak's
article states that there's a big problem with her
statement.

The fact is, in 1963, not only was Hillary Clinton a
republican, but she was also a staunch supporter of
republican Senator Barry Goldwater, well known as a
segregationist and one of the most vocal senators
adamently against the passing of the Civil Rights Act
of 1964, which is why he lost in his presidential bid
to Lyndon B. J o hnson. Novak writes "...how then could
she be a 'Goldwater Girl' in the next year's
presidential election?" He continues, "...she
described herself in her memoirs as 'an active Young
Republican' and 'a Goldwater girl, right down to my
cowgirl outfit.'

Novak adds, "As a politically attuned honor student,
she must have known that Goldwater was one of only six
Republican senators who joined Southern Democratic
segregationists opposing the historic voting rights
act of 1964 inspired by King. Hillary headed the Young
Republicans at Wellesley College. The incompatibility
of those two positions of 40 years ago was noted to me
(Novak) by Democratic old-timers who were shocked by
Sen. Clinton's temerity in pursuing her presidential
candidacy." Novak adds, "What Hillary Clinton said at
Selma is significant because it betrays her campaign's
panicky reaction to the unexpected rise of Sen. Obama
as a serious competitor for the De mo cratic nomination.


Clinton's plans were transformed by the advent of
Obama, an African-American threatening the hard
allegiance of black voters forged by Bill Clinton. On
one hand, the Clinton campaign has attacked Obama and
his supporters. On the other hand, she has sought to
solidify her civil rights credentials.

While Clinton was re-inventing her past, her road to
the White House is not going as planned. Instead of a
steady procession to coronation at the Denver
convention, she is involved in a real struggle against
credible opponents led by Obama. No wonder she and her
handlers were tempted to imply the existence long ago
of a young lady in Chicago's suburbs who never really
existed."

We greatly appreciate Mr. Novak's findings which bring
one main thought to mind. Wake up Black America! DON'T
BE FOOLED ! The fact is, despite her falsehoods,
Hillary was AGAINST the passing of the Civil Rights
Act o f 1 964 that Dr. Martin Luther King died for. As a
'Goldwater Girl' she was actually even against Lyndon
B. Johnson, the very person she now gives the credit
to for Dr. King getting to the mountaintop. She has
worked extremely hard to hide many truths about her
past, including ordering that her 92 page college
thesis that she wrote at Wellesley College be 'sealed'
and unavailable to the public, an order forced upon
the college by Bill Clinton while president, although
all senior thesis' at Wellesley have been available
for public reading for over 100 years, except
one....Hillary Rodham Clinton's.

Reports have stated that information in her 'secret
thesis' could be the 'Swift Boat' ammo to be used by
the Republican Party against her should she become the
nominee. (read more about 'secret thesis' at MSNBC)

In addition to re-inventing her past, the most obvious
new Billary Clinton strategy is to use 'Token Negroes'
lik e BE T Founder Bob Johnson, Tavis Smiley, and Magic
Johnson to name a few, to attack and discredit Barack
Obama, a tactic which many blacks find additionally
offensive, calling these black Clinton cronies
'sell-outs'. Spread the word....share the facts. The
Clinton's have been conning the black community for a
long time and are NOT what they claim to be. I bet
they go home at night, pour some expensive wine, kick
their feet up and just laugh like crazy about what big
black suckers we are. But now, it's time to prove them
wrong !




ARTICLE 2

I am practically seething with all of the black people, especially so called "intelligent" , "educated", black people giving a million tired excuses of why they won't vote for Barack Obama and will vote for a Hillary Clinton:


1. He's not ready/He's not experienced.
Man please. You have the top 3 Democratic candidates with 1 Senate term under their belt. Hillary as the First Lady as experienced? Not one executive decision is made being as the first lady. That's like Stedman recommending a book, endorsing a candidate, or having his own show...SO WHAT.


2. White America is not ready for a Black president.
Whaaa? Was White America ready for slavery to end? Giving us the right to vote? Desegregation of our society? When did black people ever let white people dictate when and where we were getting our just due, our break? We've always stepped up and demanded what we wanted, or we were either hitting the streets and tearin' up some stuff, escapin', marching, or picketing. White America is ready for a Black President because Barack Obama is the right man for President, PERIOD.
Besides, that never stopped anyone from voting for Jesse Jackson, a man with NO political experience AT ALL from almost snatching the Democratic nomination in 1984, and coming darn close again in 1988 20 YEARS AGO.


3. Barak is half black and half white, so he's not really black anyway.
I should backsmack anyone who has ever thought that. Ever heard of the one drop rule? It has not only been a social standard for WHO is black, but it also upheld the constitution in keeping us from suing a white person over personal property. No black person ever refers to another black person as "biracial". You black. You might have another heritage in your lineage, but this country as well as any other sees you as black, PERIOD. Lame excuse people.


4. I don't know what issues Barack stands for.
When the heck has that ever prevented black folk from voting for a black candidate, really? I guess now, but the main people saying that couldn't tell you anything about Hillary's or John Edwards platform either. Please stop fronting.


5. All he did was give that one speech.
How many great people have defined their lives, the scope of human history, and changed the world in a speech? Moses, Jesus, Paul, Martin Luther, Frederick Douglas, Abraham Lincoln, Franklin Delano Roosevelt, Winston Churchill, Martin Luther King, Jr., John F. Kennedy, Malcolm X, Ronald Reagan, Nelson Mandela, Jesse Jackson, and Jim Valvano all have changed the course of history of the world and the hearts of billions of men and women in societies since the beginning of time with a speech.
That is the purpose of a rally. A person speaks, and it prepares a ll to act in relation to the spirit of what is spoken. That is why we go to church, not to just hear our pastor blather, but to refresh God in our hearts and spurn us to take up God's will in our lives.
So save all that ying yang about that speech.


6. If all of those white people are supporting him, he must be in their back pocket.
Save the conspiracy theory home skillet. He's liked because he comes at a time where a person that looks exactly like them lied to their face (two in a row, if you include Bill Clinton with Monica and of course Bush with Iraq), and flat out said what no politician would admit: We have two Americas, blue and red, black and white. It was not publicly said, and on top of that proposed that we ACTUALLY DO something about it, not find more ways to be divided and not come together despite our differences. Noble concept, and one to be championed. That's JFK, FDR, and Abe Lincoln material. So they were feeling it, just like I was and you should too. His legislative work has been indicative of this a s well, including his Fuel Standard work with President Bush. Check the resume, it shines.


THE REAL REASON BLACK PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO VOTE FOR OBAMA IS THAT THEY ARE AFRAID THAT HE'LL WIN, AND:


1.WE'LL HAVE NO MORE EXCUSES LEFT.
We won't be able to say, "America is racist", "I cannot get a break because I'm black", and all other random excuses many blacks make for not achieving anything in their lives.


2. IF SOCIETY IS LEFT UNCHANGED AFTER HIS PRESIDENCY WE'LL LOSE HOPE.
If a black man becomes President, I honestly believe many black people feel that all of the world's problems should come to an end. No more crack selling, no more black on black crime, no more baby mama drama and dead beat daddies, no more people on welfare and on the chow line, no more wineoes, no more police brutality, no more DWB, no more predatory loans, no more ghettos, no more racism period, no more Middle East unrest, just everybody singing cumbaya. To some degree, I think alot of white people, especially liberal, feel that way too, that's why they are all up on him like that.
THAT'S RIDICULOUS. If it happened, he'd be one of the greatest people that ever lived, but that's way too much pressure to put on one man. DANG! I feel that people are really not ready for the world to get better anyway. It's l ike that father you never knew but won't make a relationship with because you don't want to be let down. It's unfair and let that go. Barak will make a great President, but he won't solve all of the world's problems, nor can he solve all of black peoples' problems either.


3. SO CALLED "EDUCATED" BLACK PEOPLE WON'T BE SO SPECIAL ANYMORE BECAUSE THE PLAYING FIELD WILL BE LEVELED.
Absolutely hate more than anything else. The above 2 reasons were largely a poor disadvantaged black person's inner fear about Barack. Many of number 2 and all of this one is specifically tailored to you bourgeois folks that actually like being the only black person (or one of a very few) in your medical school, your law school, your master's program, your Ph.D. program, your high fallutin' Fortune 500 Company, your faculty at your prestigious institution.
You feel deep inside being a talented 10th will become a talented population. As much as you detest and look down at your disadvantaged brothers and sisters, and claim they need to "get a job", "get an education", "pull themselves up from their own bootstraps", and "stop being so ignorant", you like them where they are. You are the one that has that shad y feeling in your belly when a new black person is hired because you don't want them to screw it up for you. Yeah you...I'm talkin' about you. You know who you are. You think deep inside, Keishas, Darnells, Shequans are going to get theirs now that Barak is in office, and you won't be so special anymore.
See you like racism. You probably are like Clarence Thomas, the man that benefitted from Affirmative Action but now you got yours, nobody else can get in too, so you vote against Affirmative Action. Yeah, claim you got your opportunity on merit. No, you got it on the backs of our ancestors that had to fight for you to get that job. Now you don't want a world where everyone has an equal opportunity. Well actually neither do poor blacks either, see 1.


3. IF HE MESSES IT UP, WE'RE ALL SCREWED.
Back in the day blacks with degrees could do nothing but shine shoes outside the company. Now we're in them, making decisions, even CEOs like my man Stanley O'Neal, the first black American to take the helm of a major Wall Street firm. That brother completely mismanaged the company, like many others who mismanaged banks and cause losing equity because of security back subprime loans. Now, those that are in the know are afraid that a black man cannot ever get that opportunity to be THE MAN at a major institution again.
Not only that, if Barack messes it up, there will be a backlash on all of black America. "You guys had your chance to run the free world, and you blew it".
Sorry Charlie, Barak is one man. You can't use the logic for yourself as far as getting ahead, but lose it for this man. George Bush completely botched America's st anding in the world, but I don't see anyone afraid to elect another white man. So come off of it.


4. BLACK WOMEN FEEL SORRY FOR HILLARY BEING CHEATED ON BY THE REAL FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT.
This is so dumb, I cannot address with words, but it's the truth for alot of black people, who felt Bill was the first Black President, and sistas especially would feel like they were vindicating a woman that was done wrong by anotha brotha.


5. BLACKS LIKE TO BE DIFFERENT FROM WHITES AND BARAK WILL BREAK DOWN BARRIERS WE LIKE HAVING UP.
Keep it real people. You hate it when anything we do gets imitated. It is instantly uncool. Most blacks love that we have our own thing, our own culture. Having Barack win means for a lot of people America will have more of a shared consciousness. We'll actually have to come together and squash some beef to make this country cooperative. I don't completely believe this concept, but I'm down for it. Once again, Black people really do like racism.


For all of you doubters out there this is what you really need to ask yourselves:


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same .


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What are your thoughts?

If you think about it, should HillBilly Clinton be elected as our next President we would have been subjected to 24 continuous years of Bush Clinton era. Have you seen what the country has been dealing with in that time? The above the line words are not my own but i did find them interesting and extremely thought provoking. A little Food for Thought, consume as you see fit.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

John Doe

Welcome!
Good Day!
Happy new Year!

I certainly hope that 2008 is off to a good start for you as it has been an interesting one for me. I took a break from the blog world but i am back. I decided that with my current social life the rejoining of the blog world is definitely in order. As you read my posts please feel free to comment, I love the ideas you all have and are willing to share.

So early December i met a young man who seemed to possess many of the qualities i like in a mate. Affectionate, playful, attractive, well spoken, movie lover just to name a few. For the purpose of this story were going to call him John Doe. John has these mysterious eyes and often times when were together I will catch him with this look of deep thought and then i give the ole "hey what you thinkin about over there?" his response is NOTHING! So your face is lookin like that and u arent thinkin about anything, not even how much laundry you gotta do or what you should have for dinner? Just absolutely nothing right, i doubt it. So were talking/dating whatever it is were doing and let me back up. Upon meeting i introduced myself by name and he introduced himself to me with some initials. You know the "hey wassup, im J.R." bullshit. So for a first meeting thats all fine and dandy. We've been on at least 10 dates and so i get to thinkin about this. I know that your mother did not put no damn J.R. on your birth certificate and after 10 dates i feel entitled to know your real name. He swears that this is not something hes comfortable sharing but for me its like how the hell am i suppose to build a relationship and i dont even know who the hell im talking to. Its not a major in the sense of i want to address him by his government name but damn can i know it. To me it seems almost like he's hiding something from me, or as Corey said its like hes sayin i dont trust your ass. I feel like im getting to a point where this could potentially be a deal breaker for me. I feel like if the next time we go out and i dont end my night with a name other than John Doe or Cunti Joe lol then im gonna walk. And im talkin bout walk like Naomi Campbell does it and start on over. So whats a guy to do? What would you do? How do yall feel about a situation like this? Let ya boy know....


Feels Great To Be Back


Always,

B Free